One reason school is one thing thats difficult decision I made. It's MEDIA. Yes, thats one difficult decision about school. I love media a lot but you have to take extra time and effort. And thats a lot of people with procrastination is afraid of. I procrastinate a lot and I think that's just who I am, but I try hard to et things on time and not on the last minute, because believe me, I do that A LOT. I'm afraid that I won't turn anything in on time, it's not good enough, I'm not trying enough, and i'm gonna fail.
I make decisions like should I trust this person to be my partner? Can I turn this in on time? Should I wait? Should I just give up? I did that and thought that a lot and it makes me stressed. I have this disease that makes me want everything orderly and on time, and if I don't I literally get a panic attack. Everything has to be in a list, I need to have everything packed and checked 4 times, living in fear of something not being good enough. As you guys might know, my binders a mess but things I don't really like I really don't try hard enough. But if I try hard enough I get it. I think thats one reason why I'm not going to media. I always think too hard and I overthink a lot and stress too much so maybe those are all the difficult decisions I have.
Another difficult decision in school is grades. Grades are the worst because they slap something on you're report card saying your not trying you're best when you study every night and day and makes you want to collapse after a day at school. We have decisions we make in our minds about our grades a lot. Like if we turn this essay in will I still have a good grade on my report card? If I fail math, can I still go to college? Even if I try can I still not be able to go to college? Would I have no job because of not going college? Grades affect a whole lot of your life like who you're going to marry, what you'll be, if you'll live in a mansion or a weird motel that has disgusting smells to it. It affects who you are and what you're going to become.
Those are 2 main reasons why school makes you have difficult decisions. They also make you queasy, and nauseous, and feeling like you want to throw up all the bad grades you got, but enough about that! I hope you liked my blog as much as I think you do!
-Annie ♡↞